Putting It Off?

You know when things get overwhelming in life to the point where you start putting things off so you don't have to deal with it? Well... I can now officially say that, that is exactly what I have been doing. I have been so focused on the studio and the upcoming dance competitions that I've completely forgotten about the fact that I am going to be married in 9 months.

The realization kind of hit me when my mother, or in other terms my wedding planner, has been hounding me for days to order the invitations. Now, you would think it's my wedding and that I would be all over it. Well, not exactly.

The studio I work at has this amazing idea to enter our numbers into what is called a Pre - Comp. It's great for kids who are novice, nervous, or their instructor (aka me) has a small anxiety issue. Unfortunately, that Pre - Comp is the first week of February, and do you think I feel ready for? HELL NO.

So I've been focusing my attention on that, plus my daughter, plus my uncle's decision to start a new business, and getting my music cut, ready, and rolling.

Basically, my own wedding has been at the back of my mind; and I think I've been mentally avoiding it because it just feels like one more thing I have to worry about. Now, before everyone gets in a knot, yes I love my fiancée, and I can't imagine life without him. No, I am not having any second thoughts about wanting to marry him. It's just life gets in the way. A LOT.

BUT, I did order my invitations. The picture is below. So I officially have now stopped avoiding the inevitable and might start actually enjoying the planning part.

Here's hoping at least.